Been Mia lately

Hey! so here is the low down of my life lately. I got a job... but my family made me quiet after two weeks... talk about controling. I got engaged to my childhood best friend! we have known each other since ii was 5 and he was 9... we have been dating 7 months and are curently in the process of buying our first home together! Its a great feeling to have things fall into place :)

I am currintly in the process of getting a job at CST communications. I am very excited and my fiancee zach is in the process of getting a job with MTC trucking co. lie is taking off!

Looking around

I keep looking around and I see all these couples breaking up after a year. I just keep thinking you put a year in to that relationship if your only reason for breaking it off is because your bored with that person, that is a stupid reason! Just because your not in the honey moon phase any more and real life is kicking in. Problems will come but you half to tough it out an work with that person... There have been so many times that I almost gave up on Tyler... but you just cant do that I love him to much and that is just wrong to give up on some one because of a few flaws! I mean you have flaws to they could easily leave you but they don't.

All never just give up or leave Tyler because I am bored. people need to go back to the hole divorce is not an option, you half to work it out.

Finding yourself

Some times I lose touch with my roots... Feeling like I should have been some one else. But all it takes is to listen to some good country music.... some of my favorites are:

1. You cant go home agine- by Carrie Underwood
2. invisible- hunter hays
3. god gave me you-Blake Shelton

The reason i enjoy these songs-
1. I had to go home to find my self in this crazy world before I could truly be happy.
2. Invisible was just so relatable to me because I was bullied constantly when I was a kid and i wish some one had told me that it wasn't forever.
3. god gave me you was my daughters song. because no matter what troubles I am going threw she will always be there and all always need her in my life.

You may not be a country girl in need of finding yourself. But it is always good to look back and go home to reconnect with who you really are. the troubles of life should never be two much to handle when you are surrounded by the right people.

question for the readers- Have you ever had to try and find yourself after the troubles of life left you spinning in confusion and regret? 

week 2 update on weight lose journey

My two week update on my prom diet! 

Its Wednesday!

I am already at my two week goal of 158 lbs! 

I am really disappointed in my work outs tho I did not work out at all this weekend and went to softball practice 

my schedule:

Breakfast:

• nonfat yogurt 
• strawberries
• blueberries
• and half a banana 

snack:

• half a cliff bar (on Wednesday) 
• or
• a hole granola bar 

lunch:

• usually what the school serves 
• chicken, or salad 

snack:

• the other half of a cliff bar (on Wednesday) 
• or
• a second granola bar

dinner:

• chicken
• green peppers
• cottage cheese
• whole wheat tortilla 
• green onions
• minced garlic
• and assorted spices

tonight I have tumbling because its Wednesday! I do get a really good work out on Wednesday but there isn't any softball tonight which I am sad about but all do a 30 minute walk to make up for the lost exercise. 

I will be editing this post Friday with my new measurements. 

Question for the reader: What is your reason for wanting to lose weight? Do you feel like its harder to lose weight in today's society?

Trouble in paradise

yesterday I was walking to meet my boyfriend of over a year. As I came up to great him
I caught him staring at a 7th grade girl (BTW we are both 17) and I wanted to throw up... as u can guess like most junior high kids she was putting on quiet a show with her short, shorts and way to low cut v-neck. He turned around and saw my face and ran after me when I turned away. Not understanding why I was mad. I cant express how angry I was. My expectations of a man are very high and In a moment like that I expect him to portray his self control and "love" for me by looking away. His excuse was that "all guys do it" and since the first day we were together he said "he wasn't like the other guys" so I threw that back in his face. Immature I know but I was in the worst mood that day because well... would he rather me flaunt what I mean even know I am no were near fat! I am not super slender, but I am not fat and I could walk around showing off my DD girls. but I don't cause I know that other guys would look and he wouldn't like that. Also I look at it as a modesty thing the only person who should see me like that is the person I am with, not the entire world.

I guess what I am wondering is, I know that what I expect is not that bad because I know lots of couples and men who are faithful in there hearts, mind, and body. They have trouble yes who wouldn't in this world but that do's not just give you a free pass to be a pervert. I am not a Bible freak or a preacher But I do believe the Bible is a good guide line of how we should treat each other and especially how we should treat the people we love and our selves. "But I say to you that everyone who looks at a women with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart." Mathew 5:28

P.S. Tyler cried multiple times yesterday when I shut down and wouldn't look or talk to him after I explained why I was mad. In fear of me breaking up he promised to change... with that I told him that words wouldn't cut it I had to see him make the change.

question for the readers: what I am wondering ladies is do you expect this much from your man? 

prom weight lose goals

starting weight: 162
starting height: 8'7"
waist: 34 in.
bust:36
hip: 36
right thigh: 22
left thigh: 22

weekly goals
week one: 160
week two: 158
week three: 156
week four: 154
the day after week 4 weigh in is prom!

This week has gone great so far I reached my first week goal of 160! So I am right on track. I am taking it a month at a time and all post a new schedule and new stats at the end of the process.

breakfast:
banana, raspberry, blueberry and non fat yogurt parfait
with water

snack:
half a cliff bar

lunch:
salad with chicken and ranch

snack:
the other half of a cliff bar

Dinner:
crab stir fry with broccoli, green pepper, green onion, and olive oil.
with cottage cheese and strawberries.

snack: 4 slices of mild cheddar cheese and half a serving of yogurt covered raisins.

Exercise:
30 minute walk
60+ squats
70 crunches

new life style!

sorry I haven't posted yet this week darlings. But I have exciting news! Monday I started my new life style plan. Its only Thursday and i have all ready lost three pounds! The healthy way! I am so excited I have never had this much energy! Its great to fill up on veggies and yummy fruit the best part is my sweet baby girl is on this journey two! She absolutely loves the yummy food we eat every night! I have cut out all meat from my diet except chicken and crab And i only get one serving a day at dinner. My breakfast is fruit and nonfat yogurt parfait. fresh fruit not frozen. lunch is usually a salad and I get half a CLIFF bar between each meal. A snack before bed of half a serving of yogurt covered raisins and four slices of cheese! On top of all that I work out Yesterday I went to softball practice for 2 hours, went for a 30 min walk pulling my daughter and younger sister in there wagon (80 lbs together), and went to an hour long tumbling class. so the exercise is key!

From that last paragraph you can guess that I decided to do softball. Monday was my first pitching practice... It went relay well to my surprise! Yesterday was an open gym and we played catch, bated and i pitched a little. I am still on the out side tho I  mean the girls talk about me they know I have talent but there still a little weird about me because i have a daughter.... Tough luck you half to grow up some time ladies. 

although i am kind of worried because I need a scholarship and i just don't know if all get it in cheer or softball and I need it if I want to be a teacher.... its relay nerve racking to worry about. 

we had our cheer meeting yesterday to! that was also exciting to vote on awards for the 2013-2014 squad... I don't know if I got an award but I am excited that i get to continue this journey into next year. and that i get to pull out some new tumbling this upcoming year. 

Felicity